I deal with my depression everyday.
A constant weight,
a heavy feeling of nagging negativity.
It's like it's hanging
in the back of my head,
endlessly taunting me.
I have heard this story before.
How could it possibly be mine?
I am a hypocrite.
I would never condone this
from anyone else.
Sure, my life is hard.
It's stressful being someone's mom without having my own to talk to.
But it's not horrible.
So why do I feel this way all the time?
How do I fight it?
How do I change this wiring in my mind,
which has been this way for years?
A magic pill,
or maybe someone's love?
I have tried both.
Maybe it wasn't the right pill,
maybe it was the wrong person..
Or maybe,
it's part of me.
Maybe I need to accept it.
Accepting it doesn't make it disappear,
but it makes it easier to move on.
I suppose we will see.
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