A wednesday of the New Moon.

how many poems must i write?
how many songs must i sing?
how many times must you let the bell ring ring ring,
before you get up and answer the door?
Before you finally put it together.

Fuck you.
Fuck you and your get-off-scott-free card,
fuck you and your perfect family.
fuck you.

where's my free card? where's my ability to forgive and not judge and to be fucking happy?

Where?
Why are you the blessed one? The lucky one?
Go fuck yourself, Jeofrey Mondal.

You make wishes and just take from other people.
You wish they were your kids, so just be the perfect boyfriend.
FUCK. You.

Jeofrey no-middle-name Mondal. You're so fucking selfish.
I wish I could forget you.
I wish I could forget the feelings you and I shared, so maybe I can have a chance at
Getting off Scott-free.
I wish I could take from other people and forget what it's like to be
Honest.
I wish I could forget.
I wish I could be someone else.
I wish the pain away.
I wish my mom was here,
I wish things were different.
I wish you never left me.